Salut tout le monde. I have less than a month to wait until I do my sleep clinic trial. I’m getting even less sleep now if that’s possible. Averaging about 30 mins- 90 mins per 24 hours. It’s hard to tell the days of the week or time now. I get constant headaches, not ableContinue reading “Salute”
Author Archives: I define Me
No Change
Allo tout le monde. Things have gotten much worse. The Feb 13th appointment was a complete disaster. Not only did I drive almost 30 mins (each way) on no sleep for this appointment, charged a +$16 parking ticket with and the machine printed out the WRONG license plate number, the fucking “psychiatrist” refused to signContinue reading “No Change”
So Now I have No One on my Side…
I am beyond angry, frustrated and exhausted at this point. My emotional, mental health, physical cup has been constantly over flowing with water and now it feels like that same water has heated up and boiling over. During my last god awful psychiatrist’s appointment on Jan 16th, I explained VERY clearly to him that IContinue reading “So Now I have No One on my Side…”
It Just Never Ends …
You know, this blog seems to me more like a journal than my original intentions for it. I actually wanted to help people but I don’t think I am. Sigh, I apologize. It seems I’m seeing disappointment in myself at every turn. In the past 60 days, I’ve finished school and now have school debtContinue reading “It Just Never Ends …”
Salut, Glad 2022 is Done. A Tough Year in Recap.
Salut interweb, it’s me again. What a year it’s been since I last wrote. Several life changes has happened and now I am back to my old reliable severely depressed self… yet again. HOWEVER, I know now that it is indeed Autism that explains why I feel the way that I feel and act theContinue reading “Salut, Glad 2022 is Done. A Tough Year in Recap.”
I Got A Diagnosis!
Hello interweb! I finally got my diagnosis today! I am so excited and RELIEVED that I officially say I AM ON THE AUTISM SPECTRUM! Apparently this new Doctor stated my diagnosis is Autism – Level 1 (formally known as Aspergers) because I don’t need special needs help to do things. I am so grateful thatContinue reading “I Got A Diagnosis!”
On Disability…
It seems no matter what I do to become more independent, the world keeps throwing me more evidence that I will always be an dependent to my mother. It sucks, to say the least. I’ve got two associate certificates and not able to find work in neither field. Haven’t brought up “your career” talk toContinue reading “On Disability…”
Hit Another Roadblock But…
Have you ever wondered when your going to stop tripping over yourself? Every morning I wake up I feeling this since of doom and gloom. I strongly believe I am experiencing the Great Depression (2021 edition) with my business having to close down completely, constant tension with my loved ones and loosing Cameron, my loppedContinue reading “Hit Another Roadblock But…”
It’s a New Year Filled of Introspection
Happy New Year and safe holidays to my loyal readers! Once again it’s been awhile since I’ve published a post, my apologies. Last month I had another massive meltdown that resulted in hospitalization … although I don’t believe the stay helped in the way most people think it would for me. Any whom, I’ve returnContinue reading “It’s a New Year Filled of Introspection”
Failed. Again. Where’s the Lesson?
So yesterday was painful. What I was predicting and desperately TRYING to avoid happened anyway. Had to shut down the business… which utimately means “non chiens pour moi.” Once again to those who are smiling right now, hope that FEELS good. What does one do with nothing but dreams? To me the answer is simple,Continue reading “Failed. Again. Where’s the Lesson?”
Once You've Met One: Advocating For Yourself 